Hoping to grow our Family 9.3.23

 Life has been pretty crazy over here. In the middle of everything, we have been trying and praying for another soul on this Earth. Well, God has given me an even bigger cross. I need uterine repair surgery. Surgery is scheduled for November 10th. 67 days away. We can start trying again January 10th,  2024. I turned 40 in August and I feel like time is slipping away. I need the surgery, so we will be avoiding, we’ve avoided for longer before. But this all feels absurd to me. We have been trying for 2.5 years with not even a hint of a positive. Yet now we need to avoid so I can get uterine repair surgery in 2 months. It’s not even likely we can even conceive in that time, but again, I need the surgery. Praying for a miracle. Praying for a successful surgery and quick recovery and I’m praying that we can have one or two more babies here on this Earth. Life is already pretty hard. Now we just get to add more struggles to a complicated situation. I’m just going to pray for patience and fortitude and pray for our miracle baby or babies. The relic of St. Jude is coming to St. Joe’s on Sept. 21st. I won’t miss it for anything. Saint of desperate and impossible circumstances! He is the Saint I need right now. We need a miracle to heal me and a miracle to have any more babies. St. Jude, pray for me. St. Gianna, pray for me. Our Lady of the Milk Grotto, pray for me,

Surgery tomorrow 2.24.23

 There is so much on my mind as I await my surgery tomorrow morning. I’m finally having my laparoscopy surgery for my incredibly heavy cycles. I most likely have  endometriosis, scar tissue, uterine polyps, and blocked Fallopian tubes. I would love to get pregnant at some point after this, but even if our time is over in that department, I am hopeful that the surgery will improve my cycles and I won’t be incapacitated for 17 days out of the month.

There are so many unknowns, and me as the type A person that I am, I want to control everything. I got the kids and myself to confession and Mass on Tuesday and Ash Wednesday service on Wednesday. This Lent for me will be taking it easy, trying to stay calm and even and letting God take control. I lost my voice a week ago, and every time I try to raise my voice, it’s gone again, so maybe God is trying to get me to yell so much. Lol. 

I’m praying that surgery goes well tomorrow, that we can have peace in our family during Lent and we can eventually have more babies here on Earth. I want to be a Saint, I want my family to become saints. Lord Jesus, help me to surrender to your Will and do everything for your glory!

Attempting to write again

 It’s been forever. 6 kids here on Earth, 3 miscarriages, nearly 14 years of marriage, job changes, moving houses, Covid, a new brace, new goals, life.

So much has happened. I’m going to be 40 this year. How is that possible?! I think this is going to be more of stream of conscious for awhile until I get the hang of it again, or fall off the face of the earth. Lol. 

I want to be a Saint. Full stop. I want my husband and kids to be Saints as well. How does one accomplish that when you have so much working against you? Family of origin, original sin, actual sin, years of habits, anger, a short fuse, you name it, I have it. But I keep trying. I keep praying and going to Mass and confession. I keep loving my kids and asking for forgiveness when I fail, which is often. 

I need to find a way to become a Saint while living in a broken world with a very weary soul. I yearn for more babies here on Earth, I long for a peaceful family, I wonder if my time here on Earth will get me to Heaven, because that is the goal. One day at a time, one hour, one minute.

I lost a dear friend recently, and she is my reminder that I want and need to be a saint. I miss her terribly, she was such a great mom and friend and woman of God. I pray for her intercession often. I want to see her again, I want to see my babies again, soon. But not yet. I have a lot of work left to do and I pray everyday that I can leave a mark on this world like she did. 

That’s it for today. Until next time, which I hope will be soon. God bless!

Andrea Kenny, aspiring Saint